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Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

Blogging is boring

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note : ~ stands for words that i cannot find to use to describe.

Ok fine u caught me, i copied and pasted.
But i was just trying to make a point here.
Z. I'm swinging from emotion to emotion.
Swinging faster and faster, now i don't even know what i'm really feeling.
Don't know if my laughs are fake, or i'm really happy-laughing?
I was kinda numb for awhile, but that numbness is wearing off
Thank goodness. Its so ~ to feel empty lah.


So you tell me i changed.
Yes people do change, i'm no exception.
Don't you think that the happenings of the past year
Have a part to play too? Maybe because of how i was treated,
What i went thru last year made me who i am now. Did that ever crossed
Your mind once? Or maybe you just thought
' elaine's just a self-centered bitch who gives no shit about anyone else apart from herself'
Honestly, i was crushed when i heard that. You then compared/matched me with *
I felt so ~ . To be compared/matched with * was like ~ ! I felt really disappointed with myself.
To think that i gave off that impression, and made people think that way about me.
Well i'm sorry for however i treated you,
Hell yeah i'm irresponsible, how long did you take to figure that out?
No i'm not trying to insult your intelligence
(p/s : i'm not being sarcastic like what you always think. Really.)
Its just that maybe for a moment there you were right.
Maybe i didn't want to change myself. Or maybe i COULDN'T.
Changes take great courage too, also much discipline,
which by now you should have realised, I DO NOT HAVE.
I'm irresponsible & fun-loving, carefree & short-tempered, sarcastic sounding, lazy, &whatever, but i was just trying to be who i felt like,
who i thought wanted to be.
Maybe i thought wrong, cause i'm not exactly livin' the most PERFECT life,
or even the simple, fun, happy life i thought i'd have by being that way.
All i got was some crapola results, people getting mad at me, and
HAVING TO RESORT TO WRITING MY THOUGHTS TO A NON-LIVING THING CUZ I GOTTA GO THROUGH SO MANY PEOPLE UNTIL ONE ACTUALLY UNDERSTANDS OMG.
This is such a joke.
So here i am, the first thing to 'hear' my thoughts is actually my lovely blog -.-'
This is getting pathetic. I am getting pathetic.
What the hell is wrong with me?

" text me when you read this - u knw who u are.
#if you're happy that i'm going thru all this shit piss off from my blog
`if you understand/ at least you think you do, feel free to leave a tag ok.

NO IM NOT AN EMOSHIT HAHA TYVM