WHEN ARE WE GETTING OUR TEAM BAG, TIEN?


I was having frickin' cramps during training today.
Thnks banana for helping me to get 2 painkillers
From some kind soul ( who? ) which didn't work hahaha.
I WANT TO BE CONSISTENT !
Esp my spiking ugh!

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Kinda lost the spirit in me the past two months.
I didn't know what i wanted, studies, volleyball, everything.
I still remembered i was so damn hardworking last time,
from after the june hols last yr?
Until after dec i realised that I started becoming more slack?
The fighting spirit in me was gone.
Coaches dont trust in me on court already,
unlike in china when i was always playing.
Even i myself get pressurised easily on court,
i dont have faith in myself already.
Maybe even team mates feel like that about me?
Couldnt pick myself up from the fall.
Maybe it was because i didnt want to?
I was damned tired. Emotionally / physically.
Now, i think i'm starting to find myself again.
The fighting spirit is slowly coming back to me.
I can feel tht i want to try my hardest,
to do my best for the team, and for myself.
I'm gonna try and gain the trust back.

Ugh elaine!

p/s : i didn't cut my hair lah people STOP ASKING ME !!!!! everyone sees me and goes :
' ELAINE YOU CUT UR HAIR???? ' like EVERYDAY! z. and ziping today say : ' monkey ur hair is getting cuter and cuter. more helmety . ' OMG LA I DON'T WANT TO BE HELMET AGN!